I'm trying hard tonight to remember the good things I have in my life. I have my kids, 40+ friends (two of them), friends of 30+ years (She went with me when I put Morgan down)newer lifelong friends (they will be around for a long time) some people who are in my life but they will just be passing through. I have work friends, friends who who are helping me with my aches and pains. I have one furry large dog who thinks I'm wonderful. I have a home that is very nice, I have a job--this is one of the temporary things--I'm on to bigger and better things. I have a little bit of family-I really don't think I can count on them in my life, they are tied into theirs. I have the family I married into, I'm losing them more and more but it is natural when divorce happens. I have good health although my aches and pains are not fun I can function pretty well without too many limitations. So all in all I have a lot of good things in my life.
The loss of my Morgan has made me miss the things I had. I miss my Mom being somewhat there for me. At least I could call and talk and I don't have that now. I miss having a companion to share things with. It would be nice to have someone ask "How was your day today?" What's going on in your life? Don't worry about that noise in the car I'll take care of it. I miss being pampered-I didn't get this a whole lot but every now and then it was about me. Most the time it was about him. I think I believe more and more what he said "It wasn't anything to do with me it was all about him" Things change and change is a way to propel you forward in life. It has taken me a while to come to this truth.
