Sunday, January 22, 2012
Future
I keep looking forward and wondering what my future will hold. My biggest fear is being old and alone. I see my Mom's life and know I don't want to go down the same path that she did. I really hope to find someone to compliment me and be partners in life. One of the things I dislike a lot is going to things alone and coming back home alone. I can do it but it doesn't mean I like it. Went to a play last night and it just feels lonely when you arrive by yourself and then when you come home to an empty house. I guess I'll get used to it.
Saturday, January 7, 2012
Happiness
I'm beginning to think happiness is over rated, or maybe for some but not for others. I was with friends tonight and I enjoy their company a lot. One set of friends got married in Dec and had a very nice reception tonight. I'm happy for them and glad they found one another. I was around other couples who seem to be very happy, It's hard since I want to find the person who compliments my life, one who makes me smile and laugh. I just don't see it happening. I think I'm ready to have a new person in my life. I want someone who loves and cherishes me. Respect is also going to be important. I may not be the best or brightest but I deserve to be respected. Lacking in my last relationship so I know I need this in the next one. I'm so glad for those who have found love in their life but also a bit jealous too
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