How do you know when you are losing our mind? I keep wondering what I have done to cause my life to spiral in this direction. Nothing seems to be going right, the last four years have been full of stress and problems. Tonight my Mom calls, (third time this week) I need kleenex day one, I need snacks, I'm out (I tried to leave the ones I bought her last week but no she said no take them home-so I did) Today it was bring me graham crackers-(they are good for the bowels) more than I wanted to know about bowels. I'll see her tomorrow and be glad that is off my plate for this week. I often wonder if some of why things are going right is Karma's way of smacking me for not being a better person -not really wanting to take care of my Mom. Could it be that? I'm just not sure. I really don't think I'm a bad person. I try hard to be kind and do the right thing. I got another job rejection today, I really didn't get a chance for an interview-they have already filled the position. They will keep me in mind if there is anything comes up. This is my 3rd recruiter working for me. It will happen. It just keeps my life uncertain.
I want to enjoy my vacation in a week and 1/2. I have plans to do some things to my house, I hope I have the energy and my pain is at an acceptable level. I'm really tired of the pain-mental and physical.
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